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rheumatologist!!!! it wasn't half bad. he said i don't seem to have any joint disease, just some other disease or syndrome is fucking wtih my joints. except i have mild arthritis in my knee-caps. he said if i exercise my quadriceps then that should improve. i laughed at him at this point because i would be exercising my quadriceps and every other muscle in my body if i wasn't in so much pain that i could barely move. he said the muscle pains and spasms and everything else might be due to a vitamin d deficiency, since i have an aversion to sunlight on account of it making me weak and unconscious when i stay in it for more than a few minutes. at first he thought fibromyalgia but, of course, i don't have that. he actually said i do NOT, reapeat DO NOT appear to have lupus. he sent some blood in for further testing and to check other possible auto-immune diseases, but he said it really looks like an endocrine disorder as far as he can tell. hear that? ENDOCRINE! what have i been saying for months now? ENDOCRINE! its very worrisome when it takes the professionals this long to catch up to the amateurs. very worrisome, indeed... (there's a follow-up appointment on the 22nd to review bloodwork. we'll continue the rheumatology plotline then. stay tuned for diagnostic center: massacre or cure? this friday)

i went to the library afterwards to get x-files dvds and book reinforcements. i'm anxiously awaiting the return of my ryan and i plan to force him to watch x-files with me and make him get very drunk and laugh at him. later on today i'm going to lurch around the grocery store picking up ryan-fodder. and getting vitamin D... i dunno if that's it, but it couldn't hurt. when he gets here i'm gonna force him to slave-labor round the clock until my house is sparkly again, even if he has to use glitter. and i'm going to have him take me at least one Place and do at least one Thing. i really miss nouns. i think that's the worst part of being so sick... lack of nouns.

editor's note: i was later diagnosed with fibromyalgia