some angry thoughts

Someone should drop a house on Ft. Hood.
Then someone should release a serial killer in Killeen who only targets the hopelessly stupid.
I'm committing genocide everytime I give my dog a flea bath. It feels good.
When I ride my exercise bike, I pretend that it powers a wheat mill that grinds up everyone who has been rude to me. Keeps me motivated.
Sometimes, I pretend that I'm a bio-weapons engineer and that everyone around me is infected with a slow-killing virus I created.
No one around here knows how to drive, and for that they should be thoroughly punished.

short

A few days ago Hayley tried to say kitty. She said kit. Her first word was kitty. She said it when was 10 or 11 months old. Three weeks later, she forgot how to say it. She is 2 and a half now and is just relearning her first word. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel about that

nothing

I am moved now! I live in this crappy trailer next door to my mom. I have to open the window when I turn on the water because it smells so bad. Its ground water. I spent 7 hours writing my research paper for English class today. It's a first draft and it really sucks, but that's okay. Not due until November 15th, I think. I'm not liking school much. I get this feeling that my teachers aren't really all that much smarter than me and it makes me sad. Hayley stood up by herself yesterday. She said "Ready? Go!" and then she just stood up... and fell down a second later. But it was a nice try. My mom got her these hi-top shoes that blink lights when she walks. She has a little shopping cart that she uses as a walker so she can get around. She's really fast, too. My family went to some reunion today and I was stuck at home all day doing homework. I don't much like reunions but I think in this case I could've made an exception. There's a midterm in Remedial Algebra for fuckups and retards. For some reason, I'm not having much luck on the practice test. I have an A in that class but the numbers suddenly just don't make sense. The credit card bill came in. Oh, I cringe in horror! My mom said she would pay it, but I think that statement has the Porn Emporium on it. My mom actually reads the itemized list. Eeeek! I must learn to pay my own bills or stop buying dirty porn. I suppose I can swing the minimum this month and by next month that itemized list will have just...vanished! Walter is still trying to organize a Heather Mattarazzo Film Festival as he calls it. Really its just a bunch of us morons sitting around in my parents' living room watching movies that have Heather Mattarazzo in them. It'll be fun. Sure beats cleaning toilets anyway. He wanted to do the viewing at my house but my TV is 9 inches square. We could call it the Shrunken Heather Mattarazzo Film Festival instead. I don't watch that much TV. I have the DVDs for seasons 1 and 3 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and thats what I watch mostly. I'm going to get season 2 just as soon as its in stock and I have munnies. I'm going to go play with my Sims now. I'm trying to knock up a lesbian. Her parents founded the town she lives in so her family is very important. Unfortunately, her parents only had baby girls and she is the only one who isn't married. Her sisters all took their husbands' last names, so if I want the name to survive, I have to get her preggers. I've decided that I'll make her have a fling with her roommate's boyfriend and then after she's knocked up, I'll have the two girls conspire to kill him. Then I'm gonna make her and the roomie fall in love. It'll be fun.

the baaaaaaaaby

Everyone asks me about the baby so I thought I would write a little something about her here. Her name is Hayley Rabbit Billingsley and she was born on February 12, 2003 at 8: 34 am. So you can do the math to find out how old she is. All of my family calls her Bunny. She learned a new word today. She can say "butt" now.  She can also say "heinie", "poopoo", and "peepee" among other things. Bunny has cerebral palsy so she can't talk in complete sentences or walk yet, but she's a really fast crawler and she can say a couple of phrases like "pick up", "go home", "eat ee ee" (that means eat a rodent), and "die doggie die". Her neurologist and physical therapist both say that she should be walking by the time she's four. She may never speak with as much fluency as other children in her age group, but everyone seems to think that she will eventually learn to communicate more effectively. Hayley really loves Dora the Explorer but she calls it Backpack because she can't make "r"  sounds. For awhile she would wake up in the middle of the night demanding to see Backpack. So, I bought her a DVD. It's the one with the Choo Choo on it. Hayley calls it a Hoo Hoo because she can't make an "s" sound either. She calls herself Baby even though she can say Hayley. She's been living with my parents for awhile because I've been going to school full-time and I just split up with Hayley's dad. He's still around and I still like him a lot, just the marriage didn't work out. Hayley calls him Dadddy. She rolls her d and its real cute. This weekend I'm moving in next door to my mom so I'll get to see Bunny a lot more and that makes me happy.