give up

okay, i made a really bad little movie, but the damn thing won't upload. so i'm giving up on the whole "video options i intend to use.." thing. I'm crap at filming, crap at editing, and even more crap at posting.. it takes up so much of my valuable time that i could be using to poke at dead things in jars. so no more videos.. well, maybe one more. i was thinking i'd film my Me sim doing something so you can see how i've idealized myself in the sim world. and you just gotta take a look at the John Bill sim because it looks sooo much like him! seriously! he translates into sim almost perfectly. but then that's it and i will fold my director's chair and throw a hat or something.
    I did a scary thing on monday. I made my first foray into my school's gym. It was terrifying. I almost ran away after sitting in the locker room for 5 minutes. Only reason I didn't was becase the desk guy would've noticed that I signed out so soon and he might've poked fun at me. I walked right into that little weight room and got on the elliptical trainer and it kept clacking at me so i changed machines. That wasn't so bad. I stayed for about an hour and injured a tendon. I do that frequently because my joints are all shitty. Then I looked at the weight machine for a minute or two before stretching and showering and going home. i want to use the weight machine for my arms, but i don't remember how. ther's all kinds of pulleys and levers and ropes and bars on it. i think maybe if i go there often enough i might see someone else using it and at least get an idea from watching. i'm going back today to try out either the treadmill or the bikey thingy. no more elliptical trainer until that joint heals.

i will post

got my first grade back today. didn't study, got a 101. it kind of makes me sad. she's not an easy grader either. she scoffed at my effort to define evolution because i left out the phrase "in a line of descent". i was just trying to be succinct and skip the obvious. there was extra credit, so it didn't matter. but what kind of sophmore level bio class asks a student to define evolution? shouldn't we be past that? i think we get to cut up lampreys tomorrow tho. that will make me happy. i love the lil suckers! when i die i want to be weighted and tossed to a bunch of hagfish. probably won't happen, but i can dream, right?

suck

today sucked! i went to my first class and the teacher had changed the class end time without telling anyone so i couldn't go to my next class and i had to drop it. i've never dropped a class before! so, now i have to take history next semester on top of the other 12 hours of classes i already had planned. the zoology teacher (who changed her class time) seemed to be under the impression that someone in administration would've contacted me if my class times conflicted. i marveled at her naivete. no one in admin. ever does anything right! they thought i lived in killeen, arkansas for a whole year. somehow i was living in a fictional city in another state and yet making it to class on time every day. maybe they assumed that i owned a private jet. so today sucked and it was too hot. i had to drink 2 gallons of water before the thirst left me and i still have that stupid "sun" headache. i think i might be getting sick and that's why i feel like such a bitch. it will pass.