hello floyd

i don't think i like novels anymore. all that frothy, poetic language used to describe everyday thoughts and actions makes the characters in these books seem lethargic. the great ball of lethargy slowly building in my own head lends me sympathy to their plight, but i do not believe that misery loves company. as the novel progresses, the characters get more and more burdened with words, thoughts, and descriptions of the scenery through which they travel. its amazing these people can even move, much less act out their part in the story, whether heroic, tragic, or comedic. i'm amazed they have any energy left after sitting and contemplating.. well, everything in their whole fictitious universe. that's why i generally read trashy sci-fi and non-fiction books about field expeditions. at least things happen in those stories. at least people move instead of sinking slowly beneath the sea of words, being gradually drowned in a mist of concrete language.
 
i saw something eyebrow-raising in my World Religions textbook yesterday. in the chapter on Hinduism, it describes a ritual sacrifice of a horse, "Finally, the sacred horse was strangled and the wives of the raja participated in fertility rights with the body of the horse." does that mean they fucked a dead horse? Or is there some other way to interpret the vague usage of the phrase "fertility rights"? help me out here.

you remember my sister death video i posted the link to a few blogs back? apparently over 90 people viewed it and i only got 3 comments. it makes me paranoid thinking about strangers wandering around my photobucket account, rubbing their greasy eyeballs all over my "art" (using the term very loosely). if i had known it would be so popular, i wouldn't have posted it at all. i'm guessing, due to the lack of comments, that most people did not appreciate my video but rather found it unsettling, something to gawk at- like a car accident. if that was the case, then maybe i'm glad i got so little in the way of feedback, after all. i have more videos now, but am unsure if i should post links to them or not. would that be a good idea? i don't know...  
my car finally died yesterday. big cloud of smoke, loud noise, and it was dead. or at least, i'm too afraid to drive it while its smoking and clacking and convulsing in its death throes. i might have convinced it to go a few more feet. the truck i borrow as a back-up vehicle is also dead (actually dead this time, no amount of key-turning or shouting will get it to work). battery. i can get a ride to and from school, but otherwise am stuck at home. my dirty little shack in the woods. so... who wants to buy me a car?