give up

okay, i made a really bad little movie, but the damn thing won't upload. so i'm giving up on the whole "video options i intend to use.." thing. I'm crap at filming, crap at editing, and even more crap at posting.. it takes up so much of my valuable time that i could be using to poke at dead things in jars. so no more videos.. well, maybe one more. i was thinking i'd film my Me sim doing something so you can see how i've idealized myself in the sim world. and you just gotta take a look at the John Bill sim because it looks sooo much like him! seriously! he translates into sim almost perfectly. but then that's it and i will fold my director's chair and throw a hat or something.
    I did a scary thing on monday. I made my first foray into my school's gym. It was terrifying. I almost ran away after sitting in the locker room for 5 minutes. Only reason I didn't was becase the desk guy would've noticed that I signed out so soon and he might've poked fun at me. I walked right into that little weight room and got on the elliptical trainer and it kept clacking at me so i changed machines. That wasn't so bad. I stayed for about an hour and injured a tendon. I do that frequently because my joints are all shitty. Then I looked at the weight machine for a minute or two before stretching and showering and going home. i want to use the weight machine for my arms, but i don't remember how. ther's all kinds of pulleys and levers and ropes and bars on it. i think maybe if i go there often enough i might see someone else using it and at least get an idea from watching. i'm going back today to try out either the treadmill or the bikey thingy. no more elliptical trainer until that joint heals.