in the days of teutonic puppies

i'm a little better. lost a lot of weight. like a lot. i haven't been this small since i was about 13 or 14 and i was kinda anorexic. but i'm eating lots and lots this time. just doesn't seem to help. i take a lot of drugs, mostly for pain and they make me silly. i've got this muscle spasm in my back now and the vicodin doesn't help much so i think i may have to request something stronger just so i can lay down to sleep at night. i've been sleeping sitting up in a chair the past few nights cause i can't deal with the pain. and it still wakes me up a lot. but i think i'm getting better and i'm glad they actually figured out what it was i had this time instead of giving me motrin and sending me home. they initially told me i just had the flu. idiots. they probably thought i was exaggerating how much pain i was in just cause i'm a girl. delicate little girl. mmhmm, that's me. pfft.

i've just been watching an insane amount of television. usually i don't like to do that, but i find it rather enjoyable as long as i have drugs. drugs makes all the difference. still disappointed i didn't get the option to do something more constructive with my forced vacation time. i'm still planning on going back to school in the fall even though this thing won't be completely healed until september probably. i think the pain will stop in about a month or so. i think.

hayley got her hair cut short to keep it out of her face and food better. its cute.