under the parking garage

i believe i now understand the emotion that demands so much pain that a person could split their tongue without wincing. i realize that some people have a very high pain threshold at all times, but i am not like that. i have a high pain threshold, yes, but it increases ten fold whenever i feel as horrible as i do now. this is what i propose: i shall sever some artery and drain my blood into my bath tub. then i will immerse myself in this blood and  learn to absorb oxygen and nutrients, not internally from my blood vessels like you, but externally across my skin. maybe i will slowly evolve into a new creature- the first mutated human. we will just have to find out.